Sunday, November 23, 2008

Ha ha!


This pic was just too cute, I had to share it with you guys!

Things Are Beginning To Turn Around (2)

What did I tell you, things just keep getting better and better!

Our apartment complex is now under new management! For some ungodly reason, our old landlord got moved up in status, but on a brighter note, that means we have a new landlord! Me and Sam visited her a few days ago, and she's this sweet little old lady, who's seems so happy! We asked if she had a laundry key for us, and she immediately pulled one out from behind the desk and handed it over! I'm not sure whether to be overjoyed that we finally have a key, or suspicious as to the fact that she had a box full of them sitting behind the desk, and out old landlord continued to inform us that there were none... oh well, I'm just glad that we don't have to deal with her anymore!

We told the new landlord about the things that were wrong with the apartment, and she seemed so shocked! She told us that was terrible, wrote it all down and informed us that she'd get to it right away. I'm so incredibly happy we have new management! Also, since this landlord seems to be more trustworthy than the last one, me and Sam are considering renewing our lease. To tell you the truth, we both like the apartment, even with its flaws, and we like the area. Plus, if we were to move, we'd have to have a new bus route, pack up all our stuff, find someone to help us move all our stuff, and then go through the entire leasing process again, which neither of us is looking forward to. I have a feeling that we'll probably be hanging around here for a little longer.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Things Are Beginning To Turn Around

Finally, things are starting to make sense to me. School has been good for the most part, I attended work-study orientation, so now I can start applying for w.s. jobs. Bad things still happen every now and then, but they're not affecting me as much anymore. Now if I could only get a freaking laundry key, my life would be just plain peachy! Wish me luck on that one!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Nothing Surprises Me These Days

I dunno what to think anymore. Life right now is so confusing, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Lets just say nothing anyone told me right now would surprise me. Seriously, you could tell me that you're secretly a Nazi worshiper and I wouldn't be phased. Okay, I probably would be a little weirded out, but you get my point. I just hope things sort themselves out soon!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

My emotion is back... but it's confused

For the past few weeks I've been feeling an utter lack of emotion. I have no idea what brought it on, or why, but I felt absolutely nothing. I wasn't happy, I wasn't sad, or angry; just nothing. It kinda freaked me out, especially when people I'm close to would tell me things, expecting me to react, and I would quickly have to pretend to feel something about it. It's not like I didn't care, I just couldn't get my brain to respond properly I guess. I couldn't get excited about anything. I thought maybe something might be wrong, and maybe this was some form of chronic depression, although I have no reason to be so unhappy as to result in that.

Anyway, about a week ago I finally got my emotions back, and ever since then I've been a mess of feelings. My mood will switch from one extreme to another in a split second. It's almost as if my mind is trying to catch up with the break it took, so now I'm on emotional overload!

Today for example, I woke up relatively neutral, neither happy nor unhappy. Upon arriving at school I could slowly feel my temper rising the longer I sat in my class. I found myself looking around at my classmates and truely hating each one of them. I have never hated anyone in my life before, and here I was wishing the worst upon each of them. I finally had to leave, and went into the library. There I met an old friend from high school, and the short while we had to visit lifted my spirits greatly. Once me and Sam got home, I remained relatively positive (although I think this was partly because I was so hyper from the milkshake I'd had on the way home) and we joked around a lot. I walked her to work, and upon leaving her I suddenly felt a wave of depression hit me with full force. I have absolutely no idea what brought it on. About halfway home I saw two missionaries walking ahead of me, and at the sight of them I became immediately happy once more. (I dunno why, but I always get excited when I see missionaries!) I stayed pretty happy throughout the afternoon, and got all of my stuff together for the weekend ahead. I decided to try on my bridesmaids dress once more, just to make sure everything was okay with it. Looking at myself in the mirror with my dress on, I felt like I was so pretty, which is a miracle in itself. I decided to keep it on for a few minutes, so I could enjoy this rare occasion, then took it off so it wouldn't get ruined.

Afterwards I began getting my laundry together since I had quite a large pile of it spread across my room. At this point I'm wearing an old pep band t-shirt from high school, and my cargos since all my other clothes were dirty, and upon seeing myself once more in the mirror (this is only a few minutes after the dress-wearing) my entire perception changed, and all I saw was a sad excuse for a college student. Ignoring this fact, I grabbed my laundry basket and headed toward the laundryroom. As I walked, I found myself increasingly growing more and more agitated. I began realizing how ridiculous it is that me and Sam have to walk down the street everytime we want to do our laundry since our landlord still claims that she doesn't have a key for us. Then I realized that I didn't have enough quarters to do all of the loads I needed, so I only was able to finish half of my clothes. Now I'm back from the laundryroom, and still pretty upset, although I've calmed down somewhat.

All in all, I guess I'm glad that my emotions have returned, I just hope that they straighten themselves out soon. I'm sick of having random mood swings, and feeling things for no proper reason.

Oh, and I don't want any of you to worry about me. I'm sure this will pass soon, and I'll be fine again, but in the meatime it is a little irratating. I just thought I'd share what was happening with you guys, but I don't want any of you to get upset or anything, so don't.

By the way, Michael Buble is working his magic on me right now, and I feel much better already! It's amazing how much this guy's voice makes me happy! :)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Makes me laugh every time!

I don't know why, but this video seriously makes me laugh every time I watch it! The vid is called "Dear Sister", and it's a SNL Parody with Shia LaBeuf.

http://www.hilarious.net/dear-sister-snl-digital-short/

Perhaps you all won't find it funny, but I thought I'd share it with you anyway.

By the way, the song is "Hide and Seek" by Imogen Heap.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Myspace ruins lives

It's true, it ruins friendships too. How can something as stupid as "who's in my top friends" suddenly put a stint in your relationship? It's so stupid and insignificant, and yet we're always so offended when we're moved down on the list, or taken off altogether.

In other news, our landlord STILL has not given us a laundry key, so my laundry piles have been steadily rising, because I don't want to carry it down the street to the other building. I finally bit the bullet and did it tonight though, and met some pretty interesting characters! When I first got there, a group of women were mourning the recent loss of a puppy. :( Then, as I sat there, waiting for my laundry to finish I got into a small conversation with one of them about her current (very much alive) dog she'd brought with her into the laundry, who wanted nothing more than to be petted, and paid attention to as she fought against the leash where she was tied outside. The lady pretty much told me the life story of this dog, and let me tell you, that dog had one hell of a life! Once she left, a man came in and we chatted about piercings for a while since he saw mine, and he had one in his eyebrow. Oh, on that note, I suppose I should tell those of you who don't know already, that I got a lip piercing. It's on the bottom, and off to the left side, and I love it, so don't be hatin'! Ha ha!

Anyway, me and Sam have decided that we most definitely will NOT be renewing our lease at the end of our 6 month contract. This landlady is just too spacebrained for us, and not to mention the rowdy neighbors having parties every weekend. We're hoping to find a place with a washer and dryer inside the apartment. I really think it'd be worth the extra money every month.

Monday, September 29, 2008

How Stupid Can One Person Be?

I did the most retarded thing of my entire life last night. Okay, I've probably done worse things, but this one is definitely near the top of the list!

So, imagine this in your head; I'm making spaghetti, and of course me being who I am, I try to do everything at once. I'm browning meat, cooking noodles, baking french bread, and warming up sauce all at once. So, I put the noodle pan on the back burner of the stove, but accidentally turn on the front burner instead of the back one, and the handle of the pan is hanging over the front burner that's slowly heating up.

At this moment I'm oblivious to what's happening because I'm trying to make sure I cook the meat thoroughly. Once I glance toward the pan, I realize that the water isn't boiling, and discover what's happened, so I decide to just move the pan from the back burner to the front one since that burner is already hot anyway. So, without thinking, I reach out and grab the handle of the pan to pull it toward me. Of course we all know what happens if a handle of a metal pan has been hovering over a red-hot burner for about 10 minutes, but I guess I just wasn't thinking clearly. Let's just say my palm got pretty crispy.

I've never burned my entire palm before, but dang it is not an experience I want to live through again! It hurt like hell all last night, although I put a bunch of ice on it and then some medication before I went to bed, and this morning it felt a bit better. I've got a nice blister going along one side of my palm though!

So all in all, I should not be let near lighted stoves, because they're apparently too dangerous for me! At least I burned my left hand, and not my right one. It would suck if I had to try to write all my college papers, and draw with a burnt hand!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

A Long Awaited Update

I've been meaning to update my blog for a while but I've been so busy lately, and then when I do find the time, I'm too tired. So, sorry all, but here's the scoop on what's been happening.

Apparently Spokane is a much smaller town than I imagined. I met a long-lost cousin the other day. Got some packages from Shawna about a week or so ago, and when the UPS driver knocked on my door (consequently waking me up, so you can only imagine what I look like when I open the door!) he looks down at the name on the package in his hands, then up at me. This is relatively how the conversation went:

"Are you Lucie?"

"Yes, that's me"

"Oh, I think I might be related to you!"

*sleepy shock* "Really?"

"Ya! Do you know Randy Scott?"

"Ya, he's my uncle."

"Oh, he's my dad!"

"Whoa! Crazy!" (That's all I could really think of to say!)

After that, I basically apologized to him for having to meet his little cousin when she looked like something that'd crawled out of the depths of something dark, deep, and nasty. He said it was no big deal, handed me my packages, made me sign for them; then we both said "nice to meet you" and went our own ways. He never did tell me what his name was though, which I thought was kinda funny! It wasn't until later when I called Shawna that she told me it was Jeff Scott. Pretty crazy huh?

In other news, me and Sam went to see a movie a little while ago. I won't say which one because it's a movie probably most of my family members wouldn't approve of, but it was freaking hilarious! I hadn't laughed that hard during a movie in a long time; plus we got to see it for free which was a definite plus! American Eagle Outfitters was doing a deal where you could go in and try on a pair of jeans and get a free movie ticket, so both me and Sam tried on a pair and got 2 tickets!

That same day I saw some of my old friends from high school (when I say it like that, I sound so old!) so it was nice getting to see them again! I also bought myself a poster, cuz my walls are too empty and I felt like giving myself a present. We stopped by Spencers and took a look at their poster section. Of course Sam drooled over all of the ones of Dante from "Devil May Cry" (he's her favorite video game character ever!) but I was beginning to get discouraged when we were nearing the end and I still hadn't found anything I wanted. Then, like a miracle he popped out at me! I saw a poster for the video game of "Resident Evil 4" which is one of my favs. I desperatly went to the rack and started looking for him, but my hopes fell when I noticed that they were all gone. Then I glanced over at the slot next to the one I was searching in, and found it! He was the last one, and in the wrong slot to boot; but Leon Kennedy is now hanging happily in my bedroom!

Had quite an eventful day today. I finally beat the boss battle in "Devil May Cry 3" that Sam couldn't get past which was quite an accomplishment in itself! It's pretty silly, because I have trouble with the boss battles in "Kingdom Hearts" (which is such a happy, silly game) and usually have to end up asking Sam to help me; and yet when I play "Devil May Cry" (which is such an intense, dark, serious game) I have no trouble at all! Does that seem weird to anyone else?

I also finally got my books for college today, so I'm almost ready for school to start. Just a few more things (not to mention getting my sleeping schedule in order) and I'll be set. I'm pretty nervous about Monday which is the first day, but I'm hoping it'll get easier once I start.

Me and Sammy got quite an eyeful this morning. There were 3 guys scraping paint off of an apartment building across the street from out building, and we could clearly see them out our living room door. One of them decided to ditch his shirt on the ground, and all the sudden Sammy declared that it was about time that we hung up the new Halloween wind-sock on the patio that we'd bought a few days previously! So, now we have a cute wind-sock with bats hanging on our porch, and the discovery of our sexy, ripped neighbors!

Wow, I had a lot to talk about! I'm sure I forgot about something, but my hands are cramping up anyway (probably from all the video games I've been playing lately!) so I guess this is all for now. I shall try to write again soon!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Possessed Betta

My fish has turned evil. He officially hates me, which is so upsetting since I'm crazy about him! He's so adorable, even when he's pissed! Anyway, I think he's just upset because he's been taken away from his home and shoved in a new place. Lately he's been flaring up his gills whenever I get to close to his vase, and he tries to attack me through the glass! He's been making all sorts of bubbles too, and they were collecting up at the top of the water before I cleaned his vase the other day. I'm telling you, it's amazing how many bubbles that fish can produce when he's upset! After I cleaned out his vase yesterday he calmed down a little, I just hope that over time he'll return to his old self.

In other news, I now finally know what books I'll need for college. Me and Sam are splitting the cost of our $97 Math book, and then the only other book I'll need is a $6 little book for English, so all in all my books shouldn't be too expensive! Of course, I don't know what the cost of art supplies will be for my Fund. Drawing class, but I hope it's not too much.

Started decorating my room yesterday. It's amazing what a few posters on the walls will do to a place! I'm beginning to feel more at home here; although it seems like every day me and Sam find something else that's wrong with this apartment. It's not "bad" for the first apartment we've ever owned, but it's still pretty ridiculous some of the things that are wrong here. Lets just say that there are various things missing around the place, and the landlord completely lied through her teeth when she told us that the apartment had been cleaned before we moved in.

Me and Sam almost got lost on the bus route yesterday! :D Well, first we almost missed the bus outside out apartment building, so the driver was kindof upset with us, and then we had to ask her if we'd missed our stop (we were trying to find the nearest library) and she kinda acted like we were stupid. Maybe she was just having a bad day, or maybe she was upset by the way we looked. (Both us us were pretty lazy yesterday, so we didn't wear very flattering clothing!) Anyway, once we got off of that buss, we had to transfer to another one to reach the library, but we didn't know which side of the street we were supposed to be on! We had to call Sam's brother so he could tell us where the heck to go! Then of course when we were on our way home Sammy didn't trust me when I told her what direction the apartment was in. Thankfully it was the right direction, and we got home safe and sound (and starving as well!). She should have more faith in my sense of direction! :) So all in all, we had quite an adventurous day yesterday!

The steam cleaners were supposed to be here at 9 this morning to take care of the carpets. When they didn't show up we called the landlord and she told us that they could arrive at any time today, she wasn't sure when. I even got up at 8 o' clock this morning (quite an accomplishment for me!) so I'd be ready for them! A lot of good that did me. So, in the meantime our kitchen is totally packed cuz we shoved all of our stuff onto the linoleum to get it out of the way. My parakeet is particularly upset with having his cage in the kitchen!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Apartment Living

Well, it's official now. Me and Sam are moved into our new place, and are now living on our own! It's pretty freaky, but the longer I'm here, the more it seems like it's not so bad. I'd like to thank everybody who helped me along my journey, whether it was help with material things, or just with your kind words! It's all greatly appreciated, and you've all assisted me in more ways than you know. Thank you, I couldn't have done this without you!

Our fridge is finally filled! It looked pretty pathetic when we first got here, but now we have food so all is well with the world! ^_^ Oh, and I'm totally stealing internet from my neighbors, and the connection is GREAT, so maybe me and Sam won't have to buy internet! We still don't have much furniture, but that's alright. I always liked the floor better than chairs anyway! Tori (my parakeet for those of you who don't know) has been introduced to his new home. He was pretty upset on the drive up, but once I got him into his cage and he saw his mirror (his best friend) he was pretty content! I think he'll do alright, although our relationship has pretty much gone back to square one. I think the 3 months I was gone made him forget who I was, so now he's scared of me. But, with a little interaction everyday he should calm down again.

I walked to Wal-Mart all by myself (at night too) and didn't get abducted! That's always a good sign; although I did talk to Miya the entire way, thanks for keeping me safe sis!

Now for the next step, finding a job. I'll try to keep you all updated on any opportunities I come across. I hope I can find a job somewhere other than in retail (those hours in the university bookstore were killer, and I'd rather not go through it again if I can help it) but I suppose I can't be too picky at a time like this. A boring, crappy job is better than no job at all! Anyway, that's about all for now.

"Owl City" is so relaxing! I've been listening to him whenever I feel stressed, and he really helps! He reminds me a lot of "Death Cab for Cutie", so I know Shawna (and probably Miya too) would like him. Check him out if you get a chance.

Friday, August 22, 2008

So close, and yet, so far!

My current obsession (if you've spoken to me, or been around me recently, then you know what I'm talking about, so there's no need to tell you what it is) is only 16 1/2 hours away from me! But, even with it being so close, there's no way I'd ever be able to reach it! Why must obsessions be so torturous!!??

Saturday, July 19, 2008

New Job


Hey everyone. Well, I finally got a job! Yay, I'm no longer unemployed! I'm currently working at the Idaho University bookstore.I do like it too; the employees are super nice, it's really easy, and I'm moving tons of stuff and walking a lot so I'm sure I'll get really buff! The only thing is, it has got to be one of the most boring jobs ever!
There's not a lot of variety in a job like this. I'm either putting price tags on stuff, organizing clothes, moving stuff, or cashiering. Every now and then I find myself going slightly crazy and have to find ways to distract my brain. It wouldn't be so bad if they played some music, but the head honcho has been pretty stern on the no-music rule. I'm not sure why it is that way, but I won't argue. So, often times I'll find that I'm humming to myself without even realizing it!
Having a job like this really gives you a lot of time to think though. And, I am glad I have it. I've actually made quite a few friends, and it's nice to know that I'm actually DOING something now, rather than sitting around, web-surfing all day! (although, I do still spend a good amount of time online once I get home from work! Youtube has become my new best friend these days!)
Anyway, that's about it. Not a whole lot else has happened. Oh, I got a new haircut a little while ago. I kindof have bangs now, and it's pretty strange. It took some getting used to! I really like it though, I needed something different.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

If I could have any Superpower...

I was thinking about it this morning, and of course my first request was the ability to fly! That'd be so amazing. Then of course, I thought "well, what about being invisible?" because then I could sneak into all sorts of movies and concerts, and follow people. All that good, fun stuff. I would probably be playing pranks on people nonstop! Then, after I thought a little longer and realized what the ultimate superpower for me would be.
If I could choose any superpower, it'd be the ability to distinguish truth from lies. I'm not quite sure what you'd call that. Would it be mindreading?? Anyway, I think I'd choose that because then I'd really know what people think of me, and what they really want to say, but are too chicken to just do it.
I do realize that this power might in fact be a terrible thing to have, considering I might find out something about someone I'd rather not know. But, I think it's a risk worth taking. After all, I'd rather know all the nasty things people think about me, and be able to change because of them, (or tell them to screw off and die, whichever better suits the occasion) than be oblivious to their feelings.
Kindof an odd post, but I just thought ya'll should hear about it.

Monday, June 30, 2008

My jaw hurts

I know, I'm terrible. I have a perfectly good weblog, wireless internet at my fingertips, things happening to me each day, and yet I still don't write. The truth is, I was never one to write blogs/journals, even as a kid. Most girls have a diary of some sort where they recorded everything that happened each day, and I also had one, and I would occasionally write in it, but the entries were few and far between. I guess it's just never been high in my list of priorities to do. I am trying to get better about it though, believe me, and even if you don't believe it, its true, no matter what you think; so there. ^_^
Anyway, I got my second wisdom tooth taken out today. I got the other bottom one removed a few weeks back. They told me that this tooth was even easier to extract than the other one (which was surprising since the other one only took about 5 minutes after they got me all numbed up!) It was pretty weird seeing my tooth out of my mouth with all it's roots and stuff! It looked just like those teeth you see in the little cartoons all around dentist offices, except a little bloodier. Anyway, they gave me more Novocaine this time around for some reason, so it's taking my face extra-long to regain feeling. I took a couple pics of myself trying to smile, and they look pretty ridiculous since only one side of my mouth would move. Miya said it was cute, kinda like the side smirk Harrison Ford always has! Maybe I should numb my mouth more often, then I could charm the boys with my sexy side smirk!
Speaking of boys, I met one the other day. (Isn't it amazing, I mean there's only about 3 billion boys in the world, and I just happened to meet one!) Anyway, I saw him at Taco Time about a week ago when Miya and I stopped to eat during our travels through Moscow. I noticed he kept looking at me, and at first I thought that maybe I had something on my face, or clothes, but after disclosing that theory I realized that it was more than that. Anyway, I told Miya about it and she convinced me to write down my number for him. I was unsure about it, since I'd never done anything like that before, but after a while convinced myself that it was no big deal. Anyway, on our way out he was standing behind the register (did I mention that he was an employee? I don't think i did) and Miya told me to go for it, but coming to my senses, I chickened out and ran outside. He was standing there smirking at us the entire time! Miya stopped me, and told me to go back, but I wouldn't. I was WAY too nervous. She then grabbed the piece of paper with my number on it out of my hand, marched back inside, and gave it to him! Well, I didn't really expect anything to happen, but as it turned out, he called me that night.
He informed me that his name was Tommy, and we basically had a short, very silence-filled conversation about what sort of things we like. I noticed that, every time I asked him about himself, he said "I don't know...". I was starting to wonder what he DID know, when he asked if I wanted to hang out sometime. I said sure. he called me the next day and invited me to go swimming with him and his friends, but I declined, telling him I was busy. I didn't want to seem rude, but at the same time, I didn't really want to meet him for the first time in a bathing suit, surrounded by his friends. Not my cup of tea. Anyway, we did finally meet a few day later, and walked around Moscow for a while. He was actually really sweet, and I enjoyed talking to him. Some of the things he said, I'm doubtful about whether or not they were true, but on the whole, he seemed like a nice enough guy. Anyway, we haven't talked since then, and that was last Thursday, so I doubt this is going to go anywhere. We probably won't even see each other again unless he happens to be working the next time we go to Taco Time.
Anyway, other than that, not much has happened. I'm still looking for a job. I'm house-sitting for Roy's boss while he and his wife are gone to Britain for two weeks, but other than that, I haven't found work yet. I'm re-playing Zelda: Twilight Princess on the Wii, cuz that game's awesome! I've overdosed on the internet, as it's such a novelty at the moment. I never had the web right at my fingertips whenever I wanted it before, and I've become somewhat of an internet junkie. I'm still trying to get over my current obsession, Tokio Hotel. Seriously, I don't even know why I like these guys so much. But, I do this with practically every new band I come across. I discover them, I realize that I like their stuff, and then I completely immerse myself in them until I'm sick and tired of them! I did it with Death Cab For Cutie, Kill Hannah, +44, Panic! At The Disco, The Killers, Simple Plan, and many many more! It's the same with movies and actors. Every month, I have a new obsession. The only question is, who's next?
Well, I think this blog is sufficiently long, to make up for all the missing entries I haven't done. Rest assured, I will strive to write more often, but I think that's all for now. Have a lovely evening!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Anyone else notice a similarity?

Am I the only one who thinks that Bill Kaulitz (the lead singer of Tokio Hotel) looks distinctly like David Bowie from the movie "The Labyrinth"? I just recently discovered this band, and fell in love with their music, but when I saw the singer, my first thought (other than my confusion as to whether it was a girl or a boy) was Jareth, the Goblin King!! They're pretty good though, my favorite songs being "Monsoon", and "Don't Jump". Their originally from Germany, and I enjoy listening to the German versions of their songs as well. You all should check them out on Youtube sometime, if your interested in Pop/Rock type music that is.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Lots of Stuff

Well, I finally got registered for my college classes. I'm taking English, fundamental drawing (my fun class!) and of course, my favorite class, Algebra. It doesn't even feel like it's really happening yet. I guess I'll only really feel like a genuine college kid when I'm moved out and paying for my bills!
I've still got so much to finish with high school though, before I begin worrying about college. We have finals in all our classes, I need to turn in about 3 essays, but my flashdrive is being a bitch and not working at all for me. It'd really make my life a bit easier if I actually understood technology! Poor Miya and Roy, whenever anything goes wrong with my appliances they're the first ones I call! I'm surprised they haven't told me to stop calling them already!
I'm going camping this weekend! I'm pretty excited, since it's probably one of the last times I'll be able to see my friends together before I graduate. It's supposed to rain all weekend, but I think we'll have fun anyway.
OMG, have you ever met someone who was completely attached to you, but all you want is for them to just get the hell away from you?! I have someone like that. She's one of those people who wants everyone to support her, and do things for her, but she never gives you anything in return. Seriously, sometimes she gets so annoying I feel like I'm about to punch her in the face, but of course I don't. The only reason I'm "friends" with her is because I'm too damn nice to tell her to get lost. I guess I feel kinda bad for her, since she doesn't really have any other friends besides me. Gee, I wonder why!
Anyway, tons more stuff happened, but it's like 12:14 in the morning, and I'm practically falling asleep on my computer. Sorry this blog was so random, although everyone's probably just happy I finally wrote something! Love you all, and good night!